A few months ago I read the story of Elijah in the cave (1 Kings 19:10-19). Great story, moved on. Then shortly after, I read it again. Took note but moved on. When our pastor taught on it a few weeks ago, I listened. I was asking God, why do I keep hearing this story? What are you trying to say? I left without an answer and again asked the question when the story came up about a week ago.
3 days ago I was having a freak out fest. I was struggling with both of the boys strong personalities and needs and feeling unequipped and unable to have joy in the situation. I was asking, what does it mean to be in Christ? Can I be settled in Him, with joy, if this is what everyday is going to look like from here on out. I was also feeling overwhelmed with things in our life. We have been asking God to move and give us wisdom in a certain situation for almost a year now and it was starting to get to me, the waiting. I decided I needed to listen to a sermon online and get my mind out of the places it was going. So I went to iTunes and looked up one of my favorite churches, The Mission North Shore. The first message that popped up was called Paralyzing Fear, thought it sounded right up my alley so I clicked on it. Man, the Lord blew me away. It was one of those message where you blink and it is over and if you were writing notes, your hand never would have stopped. It was EXACTLY what I needed to hear and… a big part of the message was about the story of Elijah in the cave. Hahahaha crazy! If you want to catch the message here is the link https://itunes.apple.com/us/podcast/paralyzing-fear/id542501750?i=122928439&mt=2.
Wow, it has been awhile since I posted but that is real life and the only way blogging is going to work for me. Erik had to go out of town for 4 days last week and I had the boys all to myself for the first time. Surprisingly we made it and actually semi enjoyed it. I stayed up late every night enjoying the quiet and indulging myself in Parenthood marathons and working on Noonday ordering. I owe a special thanks to a few friends and family members for helping past the time, play dates saved the week for sure.
I was also able to mark one book off of my reading list, ” Call of a Coward” by Marcia Moston. I loved it!!!! It was a really quick read, which I appreciate seeing as I have three thick library books on the nightstand that I need to get through. It was really insightful about life on the mission field, going and doing things you never expected God would ever call you to, dealing with the confusion when things don’t work out how we thought and start to doubt that we heard Him in the first place. It is the story of her family moving to Guatemala to work in an orphanage and then being uprooted and sent to a completely different place that didn’t seem to make sense. I told Erik he should read it as soon as I was done but I was having a hard time not telling him the whole story in the first 5 minutes after reading it. Glad to have one book off the list. Next up ” The Searchers” by Joseph Laconte.
I wanted to share this video with you as well. We have some amazing friends who are moving to Ethiopia this spring to work at an orphanage. They heard of another couple working in Addis and have been following their blog to learn more about life over there. The family in Addis does video updates in lieu of a newsletter. It is a great idea and it is really gives you an idea of the work they are doing and of the impact they are making. So here is their video and next time, after I ask permission, I will share more with you about my friends and the work they will be doing at the orphanage
I got sucked into a beautiful blog last night and it was all about… books! My total and complete weakness. I ended up putting 7 books on hold at the library and then met with a fantastic friend today and added two more. I decided I needed to write them all out so I could push myself to read them. Not that I want to get through them but I am just so excited to devour them. By the way the blog is http://www.heartsandmindsbooks.com/booknotes/. So here is my list. If you have read any of them tell me your thoughts but don’t suggest to many good books until I get through these ones please 🙂
- Kisses from Katie by Katie Davis with Beth Clark
- No Greater Love by Candy Chand and Levi Benkert
- Adopted for Life by Russell Moore and CJ Mahaney
- The Just Church by Jim Martin
- Generous Justice by Timothy Keller
- Radical by David Platt
- Parenting is Heart Work by Dr. Scott Turansky and Joanne Miller
- Good and Angry by Dr. Scott Turansky and Joanne Miller
- Call of the Coward by Marcia Moston
- 7: An experimental mutiny against excess by Jen Hatmaker
- The Last Hunger Season by Roger Thurow
- When a woman lets go of her fear by Cheryl Brodersen
- In a pit with a Lion on a Snowy Day by Mark Batterson
- Francis Schaeffer by Colin Duriez
- God Smuggler by Brother Andrew
- Grace Based Parenting by Dr. Tim Kimmel
- The Meaning of Marriage by Timothy Keller
- Unchristian by Gabe Lyons
- The Ragamuffin Gospel by Brennan Manning
Hopefully I don’t walk past the bookshelf after this and realize there is more I want to read.
Before I had Owen I always thought parenting would be somewhat easy. I thought I could hug and kiss him a lot to show him how much I cared, read all the Dr. Dobson I could get my hands on, be consistent with discipline and share Jesus with him. I thought we would be going to the Farmers market on the weekends, taking fun mom and son dates and doing lots of adventurous things in the Summer. In my pre parent mind I had no idea how all-encompassing motherhood would be. I had no idea I would have to schedule time to brush my teeth, struggle to still date my husband and that all the things I thought before weren’t going to be enough.
Sometime in the last 6 months I have realized that my parenting needed to change. Though I was disciplining and trying to be consistent, I wasn’t see real change and the change I was seeing was in action and not in heart. I have come to realize that I was just putting out fires and not thinking long-term. With a baby in the house who doesn’t sleep much at night and wants all my attention during the day, I lost sight of needing to make goals for Owen. Goals in the sense of fostering great character in him like service, honor, respect and kindness. I came to realize that I need to be deliberate. To be deliberate means to be studied, intentional, carefully weighing, steadily moving forward. slow in deciding, unhurried. These are the things I need to be doing as a parent because it is the second greatest job I have been given next to being a wife. It is going to take time, tough decisions, a whole lot of patience and discipline on my part to be this kind of parent. The world is already telling him how to treat people, how to think about himself, how to speak to me and it is never going to stop so I can’t take a back seat. I want to ponder the skills that are important for him to have in life and make a deliberate plan to get there.
A lot of this was stirred in my heart through several blogs that I read and I want to share them with you. This first one is my favorite. It has some of the most provoking thoughts on parenting. It is solid, a quick read and there is always something you can walk away with to carry out. Plus the people who write the blog have written a few of my most beloved parenting books.
1) http://www.biblicalparenting.info/ – there is also a sister site link on their page and a ‘university’ where you can take parenting classes on tough issues like anger in you and in your children.
2) http://steadfasthope-thegospelaccordingtomom.blogspot.com/- a great devotional read.
3) http://powerofmoms.com/ – this is a new resource to me but when I went to the site for the first time, it allowed me to download two books for free. They also offer a circle of moms group, where you get together once a month to discuss a parenting topic.
4) http://www.strategicdads.com/blog – dads really get left out but they are essential to our parenting. A full resource for them.
I would love to get your opinion. What are some of your go to resources online and how do you put in to practice being deliberate? I will post more in the future on my favorite parenting books once I am done reading the few I am working through now.